Man, this morning was a kicker. It was so bad that I almost canceled all my plans for the rest of the day. That is the trouble with mental disabilities. They can cause problems suddenly, and sometimes getting out of the funk takes a whole lot of work.
I guess by now I have figured out some strategies for dealing with it. I take some medication prescribed to me for such scenarios. I also avoid being alone, although this morning I did not have too many options for company. While this kind of thing can create incredible problems if you don't know how to get through it, the aftermath can really assist you in other parts of life.
I have had lots of mornings like that. Mornings that seem phenomenally hopeless, even if reality says otherwise. Right now I am dealing with prolonged unemployment, and so some days I just hang out at home. That kind of situation can be very hard on an overachiever. The logic that starts going through my head can be very destructive. But the fixes are in place. Over the years I've rewired my brain so that those problems don't sink me. Its nothing amazing. I'm just doing what is necessary to succeed.
Jesus is very useful. He is amazing, wonderful, miraculous! But when the darkness clouds your thinking, it can be easy to actually be mad at Him. You want to be rescued! You want the problem solved. But He is not doing what you think you need. Then, two or three hours, or days, or weeks later, you come out of the darkness. Why does He allow the pain to continue? Because the lessons learned are more valuable than the pain experienced. Jesus is a value savior! He really is. He will solve everything when the time is right, and not a second before. He is perfect at buying low and selling high, so don't question His methods next time the devil is dancing on your soul.
I guess by now I have figured out some strategies for dealing with it. I take some medication prescribed to me for such scenarios. I also avoid being alone, although this morning I did not have too many options for company. While this kind of thing can create incredible problems if you don't know how to get through it, the aftermath can really assist you in other parts of life.
I have had lots of mornings like that. Mornings that seem phenomenally hopeless, even if reality says otherwise. Right now I am dealing with prolonged unemployment, and so some days I just hang out at home. That kind of situation can be very hard on an overachiever. The logic that starts going through my head can be very destructive. But the fixes are in place. Over the years I've rewired my brain so that those problems don't sink me. Its nothing amazing. I'm just doing what is necessary to succeed.
Jesus is very useful. He is amazing, wonderful, miraculous! But when the darkness clouds your thinking, it can be easy to actually be mad at Him. You want to be rescued! You want the problem solved. But He is not doing what you think you need. Then, two or three hours, or days, or weeks later, you come out of the darkness. Why does He allow the pain to continue? Because the lessons learned are more valuable than the pain experienced. Jesus is a value savior! He really is. He will solve everything when the time is right, and not a second before. He is perfect at buying low and selling high, so don't question His methods next time the devil is dancing on your soul.